Friday, May 29, 2009
Hacked again
Thursday, May 28, 2009
A piece I read
Stupidity, insecurity and fear are three foes of our inner life. Stupidity includes insecurity and fear. As a matter of fact, stupidity encompasses everything that is unaspiring and negative in our life of aspiration. Why am I stupid and why do I remain stupid? I am stupid because I have not yet seen my true form and I have not yet realised my own highest height. I remain stupid precisely because inwardly I cherish stupidity.
There is not a single day when my mind does not cherish authority and supremacy. In my outer life I try to exercise supremacy over others; I show my undue and unauthorised authority. As soon as I show my authority and supremacy, I separate myself from the rest of mankind. With the disappearance of my oneness-life, my stupidity begins.
Why am I insecure and why do I remain insecure? I am insecure because I have not yet felt my inseparable oneness with the rest of the world. I remain insecure because inwardly I cherish insecurity in a very strange and peculiar way: I think that my insecurity is keeping me alert and cautious. I know that I have countless superiors but very few inferiors. But because of my insecurity I am always afraid that even these inferiors are going to dethrone me and start dominating me. As long as I do not have confidence in the purest sense, I feel that I have to keep insecurity at my heart’s door to protect me, which is absurdity on the face of it.
Why am I afraid? I am afraid of certain people for various reasons, but the main reason is that I dislike them. When I dislike anyone, I feel that the person I dislike is always speaking ill of me; I feel that sleeplessly and breathlessly that person is counting my shortcomings. I feel that he is leaving no stone unturned .to expose me to the outer world. Because I dislike others, because I have no love for others and feel no oneness with them, I am afraid of the world. Where there is division and lack of oneness, there is always fear. But if I like the world, the world will also like me. If I love the world, my love will be reciprocated. In the life of a person who does not feel oneness with the rest of the world, stupidity, fear and insecurity can never come to an end.
Stupidity, insecurity, fear: these are my problems. But do I sincerely, soulfully and bravely try to liberate myself from these problems? No! I feel in a very peculiar way that my countless problems are keeping me alive. I feel that if I had no problems, by this time I would have become lifeless and inactive; and that my life of sloth and inertia would have made me even more miserable than I am. I feel that because I have problems to face, my inner energy comes to the fore. Alas, these are the strange ideas that I cherish.
At times, when I am beset with problems, I go to my friends and dear ones in the hope that they will be able to free me from my problems. But, like me, they too are loaded with problems and they cannot help me.
Each problem is an inner ailment, an inner disease, and only an inner doctor can cure me. My inner doctor is my Inner Pilot. He tells me, “My son, I can cure you of all your problems, but I have to charge you a fee. The fee that I need is your constant prayer-life. The fee that I want is your constant aspiration-life. If you give Me your prayerful heart and your aspiration-life, I shall cure you of all your centuries-old maladies. Only a life of prayer and a heart of meditation can cure you of your long-cherished ignorance-dream.”
(The Oneness of the Eastern Heart and the Western Mind by Sri Chinmoy)
Monday, May 25, 2009
Blogging or cyber puglilism
Sunday, May 24, 2009
MY FELLOW VETS
We fought for each other. To the vets Semper fi.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Daryl Hayott interview & Preview
Thursday, May 21, 2009
NEW TUNE POSTED ON OUR MYSPACE PAGE.
THE GIFT
I’m zoning in for this tour, as well as the drum solos. When you have distractions like family illness, it can be an effort to keep your mind still. I choose to view it as a test of humility. If u don’t play for anything other than your ego, life’s situations will be no more than a series of virtual reality scenes. I’ve been doing this since my teens. The cats coming up today can’t even play an instrument, but can find their way to the jewelers to get gold caps for their grill. I believe in some form your gift will exact a price or many prices. It keeps us aware that it’s a loan not a birthright. Well enough for now, gotta get into the day.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Doing the web drum thing
The beat continues. We’re trying to find a location in order to set up a webcast for the drum solos. It’s always a trip setting up a drumset that contains 21 pieces which include cymbals and roto- toms. I’m currently using a double bass rig. That requires a special mike rig. Finally it has to be shot from high angles as well as the straight ahead view. Cameras for me are a distraction when their boomed on a high shooting down. I feel like those toy monkeys that beat cymbals on the toy store floor.
In any case it’s the sign of the times. Cyber junkies need their fix. If it’s shiny it sells. LOL My god when do we just get back to simplicity without risking the shaky bottom lines? At least I can get some of that fancy coffee. LOL
Monday, May 18, 2009
reflections
Reflections
It’s been one of the most intense weekends in my entire life. Family issues regarding illness has pretty much kicked the wind out of my sails. In this regard I’m truly not unique. I would think that due to my life in music, I’m always looking at time as some type of convenient consideration based on performance deadlines. Tuning up for a tour is like a daydream when I consider the pains of cancer on a senior whose entire life has been about physical and academic perfection in one case and giving to the young in the other.
I play music for a living and that’s just one of the experiences in a life that has been marked by resurrection in cycles. I’ve always been secure that I would accomplish whatever, whenever I choose. Well reality check. I’m determined to help my family be as comfortable and stress free as possible.. Never let time fool you into a false sense of your own importance. It will never be worth a Grammy or anything platinum.
Reflections
It's been one of the most intense weekends in my entire life. Family issues regarding illness has pretty much kicked the wind out of my sails. In this regard I'm truly not unique. I would think that due to my life in music, I'm always looking at time as some type of convenient consideration based on performance deadlines. Tuning up for a tour is like a daydream when I consider the pains of cancer on a senior whose entire life has been about physical and academic perfection in one case and giving to the young in the other.
I play music for a living and that's just one of the experiences in a life that has been marked by resurrection in cycles. I've always been secure that I would accomplish whatever, whenever I choose. Well reality check. I'm determined to help my family be as comfortable and stress free as possible.. Never let time fool you into a false sense of your own importance. It will never be worth a Grammy or anything platinum.